The Blog of Light

I’ve decided, well, we’ve decided, that we’d know baby Light’s gender tomorrow when we have our abdominal ultrasound. I’m just going to go with what I’m feeling right now, and right now, I’m feeling really excited to find out Light’s gender. So, tomorrow, hopefully, the baby will be in a good position to take a peek at his/her gender. 🙂

I feel guilty, though, wanting a boy. I tell myself, and I do believe, that it doesn’t matter if the baby is a girl or a boy as long as he/she is healthy. But I can’t help but wish that we’d have a boy. I guess it’s because I’ve conditioned myself that having a son as my first child would be the ideal thing for me. Way before I got married. He would be the big brother, should we decide to have another kid. 🙂 Of course, in a Chinese family, having a son is also important, the one who’ll carry the family’s name. But I don’t really care about that.

I do feel, though, that having a girl will be so much fun. You get to dress her up. Plus, a girl is sweeter and more loving, so they say. 🙂 I guess I’m scared to have a girl because I’ll have to be more protective of her. I feel like having a girl will worry me so much. I’d worry about teen pregnancy and boys, and sex. They say that if you have a girl, you’ll be “at a disadvantage” as compared to if you have a boy. A girl just has too much to lose in a relationship. Well, that’s getting ahead of myself.

Maybe it all come down to how you raise your child. If you’re confident that you’ve raise a child who can carry him or her self well, and who is responsible, then you don’t have to worry about them and the decisions they make in the future. And that’s what I’ll be focusing on once baby Light comes out. 🙂