I had a dream about our baby Light last night. This time he was a boy. I had dreams about our baby before but I’ve always dreamt of girls. Twice I dreamt that our baby was a girl, and my dreams recently have all involved girls. It was only now that I dreamt of a baby boy. Dennis was set on a baby boy. His gut feel says it’s gonna be a boy.
It’s funny how dreams can show what’s on your subconscious mind. At least that’s how I “interpret” them. I don’t really mind what our baby will be as long as he/she is healthy. But I have to admit that I worry having a girl. I worry that I might not be close to her, that I wouldn’t know how to bond with her. I feel like I’ll be closer to a son. I’m not sure if these baby girl dreams are my subconscious mind telling me that I really want a girl or they’re my secret worries of having a girl.
Aside from dreaming of a baby boy, last night I also dreamt of breastfeeding my baby. This was definitely triggered by (1) the recent seminar on breastfeeding that I attended, and (2) my fear of breastfeeding. Breastfeeding is one of my fears in this whole baby thing, and speaking of fears, here are my other MAJOR fears of having a baby.
Of course this stage of pregnancy is scary. Almost all women say it’s painful. I feel like no matter how much I prepare for it, it still wouldn’t be enough.
Raising A Child
What kind of parent will we be? What is even the correct way of raising a kid? How do I protect him or her from every bad thing???